In today's night time walkalogue, I explore memory, its connection to the story of me (your story) and sleep. I speculate on a constellation approach to understanding how memory works, memory and time and the function of memory. I explore how we construct our personal narratives and how memory relates to the overall story of the self. Finally I look at how we approach sleep, what our expectations of sleep are and what we can do to engage memory and imagination prior to sleep, in order to strengthen memory and live the ignored and un-noticed parts of our day as completely as possible.
PS. Update. I noticed in my tiredness I referred to the Penrose map instead of the Penfield map.
In this monologue I introduce the idea that there is a relativity to our humanity.
Many humans like to believe that we are more than human and that's all, while others argue that we are merely a living organism and nothing more. I argue that we are both transcendent and ordinary ! Some people try so hard to be more than human and forget their humanness - at great cost ! While others revel and suffer in their humanness, ignorant of other aspects of their being.
We humans also believe that we are separate and forget that we are defined by our relationship to each other and the natural world. We are in relationship with all of existence ! We become consumed and preoccupied by our roles and forget that they are created by relationships.
There are many people who didn't receive what they needed to feel like whole human beings. I ask if it's possible to reskill people in love and intimacy to create new bonds and attachments in groups of people who are bound by suffering.
Last Thursday and Friday I had a follow-up visit to the hospital where I have my treatment and scans. On the Friday, with several hours of free time, I decided to make a commentary about the people I was observing and what I think of as The Cancer Personality. This is an idea I've been exploring for more than a decade and an observation that I may have made about my self once upon a time ! You may think I'm judgemental in my comments and that was certainly not my intention. Of course I know nothing about the suffering, resilience, hopes, desires or struggles of the people I observed. What follows is my observations as a writer and as a human being who has taken a similar, albeit different journey.
Distinctive personalities might be found in any number of acute and chronic illnesses. My guess is that certain constellations of physical, psychological and emotional traits and experiences, might one day be found to align well with certain illnesses.
This monologue gets off to a bit of a rambling start with my venting about killer feral cats etc. but 13 mins in, things begin proper.
The issue of aloneness & loneliness is an issue that is close to my heart. In today's walk and talk I approach the issue of aloneness & loneliness by talking about my son's life (with his permission) and my own adolescence. I'm often amazed at how sometimes, our children mirror our own lives. What is aloneness & what is loneliness and how does our authentic self relate to the experience of loneliness ? Does loneliness only happen to introverts or are extroverts equally vulnerable, to this most painful symptom of the human condition ?
Loneliness is a universal experience. Today I ponder some potential solutions to loneliness and speculate as to whether whether or not loneliness plays a significant role in our lives.
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Sometimes we try and turn away from the shocking reality of how things are. But how things are is how they are. Isness is a powerful ally !
In this walk and talk I explore how nature's seasons and the cycles of nature, parallel the seasons of our life and how we all face the same seasons of life, as part of the seasons of the human clock - from the cradle to the grave.
I offer a tour of the seasons here on this land and suggest how facing the shocking reality of all that nature brings, helps us to face the shocking reality of how things are in our own life. I suggest that the seasons of nature and of human life are necessary to create awareness and to help us grow. Life is both predictable and unpredictable and if we have courage, we can stay open to anything that life might throw at us.
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In this walk and talk, I contemplate the different types of rituals that fill human life and how we might create our own rituals to enrich our life.
All spiritual traditons emphasize the importance of freeing ourselves from drama because drama causes suffering. I beg to differ. Drama helps us to grow and suffering is OK. In today's walky, I explore the importance of human drama and how drama reshapes our entire identity and experience of being human.
In today's walk and talk I explore the idea that the house we live in isn't necessarily a home and speculate on what makes a home. This is a very personal monologue, in which I take you on a tour through 37 years of some of my own houses and the one place that has always felt like home.
In today's walk in the big paddock, I introduce the core ideas behind the mystical Buddha's teachings and talk a little about how my ET friend Dude changed my view of Buddhism and my own efforts to eliminate desire from my life.
Don't be offended if you are a Buddhist. This monologue is an effort to simply Buddhism and make it easy to understand. It isn't a critical treatise on significant doctrines but a gentle overview of what the Buddha may have been trying to get at.
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I dedicate this monoluge to Frédéric for his ongoing support and to Mauren for her recent donation and for being a long time reader/listener ! Thank you both very much for reaching out to me and for making a difference and for showing your appreciation for what I have to share !
In today's monologue I pick up from where I left in TSM114, exploring the Daimon and how we can recognize and honour the needs of the Daimon for a healthy and fulfilled life. After listening to this recording, I realised that I didn't say enough about how to recognise the needs of the Daimon - so I might take that issue up in a future monologue. I might add as well, that I wonder if the Daimon has different needs at different times in the human life cycle.
For those of you who question whether or not a Daimon really exists as a distinct entity or aspect within us, I think that's a reasonable thing to have some doubt about. My thoughts are that as an alternative to the traditional view of the Daimon, we consider that the Daimon is as a driving force, a set of urges that arises from the way different processes that arise from the interaction of mind and body. Think of it as a unique force of it's own, that emerges from the interaction of mind and body. It may have a transcendant timless nature that exists beyond each individual life or be bound to each individual life. Perhps there are many possibilities. No one can prove or disprove the existance of the Daimon ! But each of us will know whether the idea resonates as true or false.
We might also consider that it's nothing more than an idea ! An idea with great power !
More than a decade ago, when I was trying to understand how reality is structured, I came up with the idea of things being assembled in certain ways. Later I learned about Assemblage Theory in systems theory, sociology and ecology and began applying the idea to other aspects of reality. Assemblage Theory is a good tool for understanding how things come together to create larger structures and 'bioscapes'. It may also be a useful tool for understanding how human and extraterrestrial civilizations arise and how the Creator Races create new worlds and places for life to evolve.
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In this Christmas monologue set just after midnight, I explore the die hard Good vs Bad ET Myth and try to offer another reason why space faring ETs do not fall into good vs bad categorization. I reflect a little on the Creation Myths of indigenous people in relation to Sky, Earth and Sea. And finally talk a little about the relationship between geography and inner and outer explorations of the soul - highlighting ascending, descending and horizontal explorations. Consider this an introduction to the more detailed subject of Spiritual Development and Spiritual Development and ET Contact, that I will explore at a later date.
As someone who has always been obsessed with microbial life, I have been fascinated with how microbes play a role in every single ecosystem - including within our bodies. A recent discussion with Dude about the human need for Round Worms and Thread Worms (yes you read correctly), led us to an interesting exploration of Microbiomes and how modern humans have disturbed their natural bodily systems.
In today's monologue I explore what it means to have a singular physical self, in view of the fact that we contain countless biomes - made up of organisms from the 5 kingdoms (Monera, Fungi, Protista, Plantae, Animalia) and the potential implications that these microbiomes have for our mental/emotional and physical health and ability to communicate with the other parts of us.
Sometimes we all wonder 'what about me ?". In today's monologue I explore the feeling of 'what about me ?' and how we can honour and alleviate this feeling that we all experience to different degrees, at different points in our life. 'Scuse the sound of my noisy gum boots !
PS. In the lyrics of the song, I say "need" at the end. It should be "give". That lyric was stuck in my head for so long, that I often forget the actual lyric. Maybe 'need' means something more to me ?
In today's monologue I explore the issue of faith and trust and reflect on what we can learn from young lambs and old ladies, about the power of will and our desire to live. I also reflect on the 5 Remembrances, life's impermanence and uncertainty.
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In this monologue I talk you through a hard choice involving a sheep and ravens.
After a late night outside, I reflect on life in the valley where I live in the mountains.
In this TSM I reflect on the death of my friend Tom
I could have talked about the Buddhist perspective of seeing visions close to death but instead I talked a little about visions as archetypal projections. It would be nice to hear from anyone who has had similar experiences of witnessing or being part of these with a dying person.
In this meandering monologue I reflect on Toa's recent seizures, talk about my experience of being with my dying friend, stroll past lots of kangaroos and talk a little about relationship styles and the concept of developmental assets.
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Here’s the first of the next batch of TSMs. This one is from 27th November. After my iPod uploader Syncios (http://www.syncios.com/) crashed, I was stuck with a backlog of TSMs and have stopped recording them until I catch up. Perhaps, I’ll have them all up by the end of the year ! This one is a little dull but it’s real life.
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In this monologue i take you to the site of where I had my first Yowie contact before trekking up my favourite path. I talk a little about the Creator Races, how the Teal’hia work with individuals from many races and how they work with humans and later look at how catastrophe shapes the path of our life.
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The following is a small reading from my book on consciousness, as written through the “higher dimensional aspect” that calls it’s self Alapo (which has in common the root for this name of the Syrian city of Aleppo). I’ve been writing it by hand, so it was very hard reading my own squiggly, illegible writing. Bear with me as I make a few mistakes and miss a few words here and there. I think it will give you a flavour of what is to come.
This book is an experiment in opening one’s self up to other aspects (see TSM17).
Hi folks, TSM19 is still being edited, so I thought I’d post TSM20 first. In this evening monologue, I talk a little about my experience of Christianity and my feelings and thoughts about Christianity and Jesus and then I introduce you to the poetry of one of my heroes Karol Wojtyla (Pope John Paul 2). I am not very good at reading poetry out loud when I’m tired but I’m optimistic you’ll get a feel for how beautiful and powerful these poems really are. They say as much about Karol’s understanding of god, as his experience of being a man who feels separate from god, who yearns for total communion.
Some of you might be surprised at who I consider to be my heroes. But such is the mystery of man, that none of us ever really understands another !
It was a sad day for me when the fisherman’s ring was broken.
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WARNING : Don’t listen to this podcast without first hearing the warning at the beginning.
What follows in TSM17 is a discussion about how I developed a process for exploring the self and in particular an idea I call Aspects of Self. It’s still an idea in progress but it’s one I think has great merit and potential for helping people to transform their lives and their understanding of the nature of reality.
I think it was Carl Jung who said something like “where the mystic is swimming, the schizophrenic is drowning”. And it’s in this spirit that I offer you this deeply personal monologue about my perception of self.
Please let me know if this monologue meant anything to you. And a brief warning, I do use the F word at some tourists ! Sorry , no long haired peace nick here ! I’m all out of patience with annoying tourists ! I also had to edit out some comments I made about a particular book I own and perhaps I ought to have edited out more.
In this brief dialogue (yes it really is brief !), I talk a little about the gaps we leave behind. Let me know your opinion on this subject !
Happy listening !
In this monologue I take you on a schizophrenic tour to a discussion about identity and how our identity lay at the foundation of WHO WE THINK WE ARE !
A morning monologue in which I talk about my most sacred scar, having 11-11 as a birthday, how I prepare myself for the day and what the experience of having tumours feels like.
Many Cowabungas to you !
I had no idea what to talk about during this monologue, until I stumbled across an Earthworm who had seen better days. After which I then I felt compelled to talk a little about human kindness.
Earthworms : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Earthworm