Well I lied. I couldn't help making one more TSM before I head off for a month. Today I'm housebound, resting up after toe surgery.
In this windless monologue I push further into the idea of causality (without going into the various definitions and philosophical interpretations), by looking at how causes and effects create causal chains and eventually causal trees and how we can create and explore life using this principle !
For those of you interested in the idea of karma (V pay attention here !), Causal Trees offer us the opportunity to choose the best possible karma, while accepting how things are and making healthier choices.
I think of the use of Causal Trees as a much better alternative to goal setting, using The Law of Attraction or any of the other waffle over emphasised by this or that channeler, The Secret or What the Bleep and their ilk.
I've tried to keep this discussion simple and I've used examples from my own life to illustrate how a Causal Tree can unfold within the possible future. I haven't however discussed the impact of Causal Trees on the development of Conjoined Spaces. I'll save that for another monologue.
Your thoughts are as usual, always welcome !
Last Thursday and Friday I had a follow-up visit to the hospital where I have my treatment and scans. On the Friday, with several hours of free time, I decided to make a commentary about the people I was observing and what I think of as The Cancer Personality. This is an idea I've been exploring for more than a decade and an observation that I may have made about my self once upon a time ! You may think I'm judgemental in my comments and that was certainly not my intention. Of course I know nothing about the suffering, resilience, hopes, desires or struggles of the people I observed. What follows is my observations as a writer and as a human being who has taken a similar, albeit different journey.
Distinctive personalities might be found in any number of acute and chronic illnesses. My guess is that certain constellations of physical, psychological and emotional traits and experiences, might one day be found to align well with certain illnesses.
In previous monologues I've suggested that real spiritual development has nothing to do developing super powers or transcending the body and everything to do cultivating awareness of mind and body and living fully within the body. In today's walk and talk, I explore some of the same ground I explored in TSM 108 - suggesting how we might move through our senses deep into the body and integrate all that arises into our awareness and in so doing, deepen the well of experience.
For those who are interested in learning ET contact, might I suggest you begin by learning how to deepen the well of experience. Begin with the body and the body will grow !
This is a recording I mad ea few months ago when I was having a really hard time with the impacts of Carcinoid Syndrome, which is a byproduct of my tumours. I'm not really sure why I made this, except perhaps to show you that I'm as real as you are. When I feel shit, I feel shit !
I've always envied people who were older than me and as I approach 50, I feel a real sense of excitement about where I'm at in life and what is to come. In this monologue I reflect on ageing, by exploring :
The negative baggage associated with physical and mental changes
Our fears of dying
The joy of ageing and old age
The importance of accepting ageing
The benefits of old age and why it's worth looking forward to getting older
The best and worst kinds of ageing
Transcending the fears associated with ageing and embracing the wonder of getting older
Moving through the passage of perpetual grief and growing through resilience
The choice we all have about how to age.
You wont find any sympathy or regret in this monologue.
You may wish to skip the first 23 minutes and my wishing to provide my sick sister with a means to fulfill a lifelong dream. I was having a hard time with her illness and seeing her suffering.
Relevant links :
I can't recommend the writings of Marie De Hennezel, particularly her books on dying and ageing. Unfortunately most of her books are in French but at least two of them are in English.
May you enjoy People of Earth.
One of the unsaid rules of life is that we all want control and believe that we have control. But control is just an illusion. We only seem to see the illusion when the things we take for granted are taken away from us. Recognizing that we have little control sometimes forces us into a place of surrender. In today's monologue, I explore how losing control can bring us to our knees and help us to accept what is, while handing over the script of our lives to something far greater than our individual lives.
In this monologue I challenge the current paradigms of western and alternative medicine, with a systemic view of the root causes of disease and chronic illness. I use my own illness as an example and demonstrate how one thing connects to another, in the development of illness.
Further information :
Gabor Mate's "When the Body Says No" :
Lawarence LeShan's "Cancer as a Turning Point" :
In today's monologue I explore the issue of faith and trust and reflect on what we can learn from young lambs and old ladies, about the power of will and our desire to live. I also reflect on the 5 Remembrances, life's impermanence and uncertainty.
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