In today's bloated (O man I feel full !) walkalogue, I explore the idea of the inner self / the inner life / the inner world or the internal self / internal life / internal world. I speculate on the nature of this strange separation between inner and outer, how inner and outer influence one another and some possible distinctions between the inner world of the body and the inner world of the mind. I ask how the conscious and unconscious aspects of our mind might exist and interact with one another and what the changing nature of the inner self means for our identity and our overall sense of self in life and death.
In this late night talk, I explore the idea of how our stories shape our identity. One of the great mistakes we humans make, is to mistake ourselves or misidentify ourselves with who we think we are. And who we think we are is either our stories or some transcendent jewel ! On the one hand you are not your story but on the other hand you are. More than each, you are both.
I was very tired when I made this monologue and unfortunately my battery died, while I talked for another 20 minutes unaware and got up close and personal with 3 possums who were having a fight ! So the monologue ends abruptly. But I think you'll understand where I was going.
This monologue is also related to : https://thesomethingmonologues.podbean.com/category/stories/.
In this monologue I introduce the idea that there is a relativity to our humanity.
Many humans like to believe that we are more than human and that's all, while others argue that we are merely a living organism and nothing more. I argue that we are both transcendent and ordinary ! Some people try so hard to be more than human and forget their humanness - at great cost ! While others revel and suffer in their humanness, ignorant of other aspects of their being.
We humans also believe that we are separate and forget that we are defined by our relationship to each other and the natural world. We are in relationship with all of existence ! We become consumed and preoccupied by our roles and forget that they are created by relationships.
There are many people who didn't receive what they needed to feel like whole human beings. I ask if it's possible to reskill people in love and intimacy to create new bonds and attachments in groups of people who are bound by suffering.
Last Thursday and Friday I had a follow-up visit to the hospital where I have my treatment and scans. On the Friday, with several hours of free time, I decided to make a commentary about the people I was observing and what I think of as The Cancer Personality. This is an idea I've been exploring for more than a decade and an observation that I may have made about my self once upon a time ! You may think I'm judgemental in my comments and that was certainly not my intention. Of course I know nothing about the suffering, resilience, hopes, desires or struggles of the people I observed. What follows is my observations as a writer and as a human being who has taken a similar, albeit different journey.
Distinctive personalities might be found in any number of acute and chronic illnesses. My guess is that certain constellations of physical, psychological and emotional traits and experiences, might one day be found to align well with certain illnesses.
This monologue gets off to a bit of a rambling start with my venting about killer feral cats etc. but 13 mins in, things begin proper.
The issue of aloneness & loneliness is an issue that is close to my heart. In today's walk and talk I approach the issue of aloneness & loneliness by talking about my son's life (with his permission) and my own adolescence. I'm often amazed at how sometimes, our children mirror our own lives. What is aloneness & what is loneliness and how does our authentic self relate to the experience of loneliness ? Does loneliness only happen to introverts or are extroverts equally vulnerable, to this most painful symptom of the human condition ?
Loneliness is a universal experience. Today I ponder some potential solutions to loneliness and speculate as to whether whether or not loneliness plays a significant role in our lives.
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Sometimes we try and turn away from the shocking reality of how things are. But how things are is how they are. Isness is a powerful ally !
In this walk and talk I explore how nature's seasons and the cycles of nature, parallel the seasons of our life and how we all face the same seasons of life, as part of the seasons of the human clock - from the cradle to the grave.
I offer a tour of the seasons here on this land and suggest how facing the shocking reality of all that nature brings, helps us to face the shocking reality of how things are in our own life. I suggest that the seasons of nature and of human life are necessary to create awareness and to help us grow. Life is both predictable and unpredictable and if we have courage, we can stay open to anything that life might throw at us.
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Today's walky talky, starts with the joy of sheep ! Using their inspiration, I explore how we can systematically and holistically experience the joy of the present moment !
In previous monologues I've suggested that real spiritual development has nothing to do developing super powers or transcending the body and everything to do cultivating awareness of mind and body and living fully within the body. In today's walk and talk, I explore some of the same ground I explored in TSM 108 - suggesting how we might move through our senses deep into the body and integrate all that arises into our awareness and in so doing, deepen the well of experience.
For those who are interested in learning ET contact, might I suggest you begin by learning how to deepen the well of experience. Begin with the body and the body will grow !
My son made a comment a few days ago that triggered a long discussion about the differences between generations and the impact that technology has on how people behave. In today's monologue I explore a little of the generational differences between people, the impact that electronic technology is having on human health (although I didn't say anything about orthopedic problems like spinal and posture related issues) and how we have allready witnessed the last of the Pre-Digital Generations. I also posit that a time is coming in the not too distant future, when there will be no one left who remembers life without electronics and explore what that might mean for humanity.
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Today's monologue is dedicated to Darci, for her courage in exposing the human condition for what it is ! Thanks Darci for your very kind donation, for your ongoing support and for being so incredibly authentic ! You have that rare gift of 'soulful nakedness' that speaks so much of the strength within you and which I find inspiring !
We all know what it feels like to be alone or to feel lonely. Many of us also know what it means to feel unfulfilled. In today's monologue I explore how we all seek that something more to take away our loneliness and fulfil our lives.
This was one of those few monologues where I actually felt I needed to talk about a certain subject but I otherwise had no idea where I was going with it.
'Scuse the wind early on and the absent mindedness now and then, as I connect with the world around me. Oh and watch out for the snake I nearly walk upon !
In this TSM I reflect on the death of my friend Tom
I could have talked about the Buddhist perspective of seeing visions close to death but instead I talked a little about visions as archetypal projections. It would be nice to hear from anyone who has had similar experiences of witnessing or being part of these with a dying person.
Some reflections on spending time with my dying friend Tom and the experience of cancer and dying.
For those who asked, yes he did die – on the 6th December. And I do not know if he saw the ETs I asked to visit him.
In this meandering monologue I reflect on Toa's recent seizures, talk about my experience of being with my dying friend, stroll past lots of kangaroos and talk a little about relationship styles and the concept of developmental assets.
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The following is a small reading from my book on consciousness, as written through the “higher dimensional aspect” that calls it’s self Alapo (which has in common the root for this name of the Syrian city of Aleppo). I’ve been writing it by hand, so it was very hard reading my own squiggly, illegible writing. Bear with me as I make a few mistakes and miss a few words here and there. I think it will give you a flavour of what is to come.
This book is an experiment in opening one’s self up to other aspects (see TSM17).
WARNING : Don’t listen to this podcast without first hearing the warning at the beginning.
What follows in TSM17 is a discussion about how I developed a process for exploring the self and in particular an idea I call Aspects of Self. It’s still an idea in progress but it’s one I think has great merit and potential for helping people to transform their lives and their understanding of the nature of reality.
I think it was Carl Jung who said something like “where the mystic is swimming, the schizophrenic is drowning”. And it’s in this spirit that I offer you this deeply personal monologue about my perception of self.
Please let me know if this monologue meant anything to you. And a brief warning, I do use the F word at some tourists ! Sorry , no long haired peace nick here ! I’m all out of patience with annoying tourists ! I also had to edit out some comments I made about a particular book I own and perhaps I ought to have edited out more.
In this monologue I take you on a schizophrenic tour to a discussion about identity and how our identity lay at the foundation of WHO WE THINK WE ARE !